rest and help

This morning God put me in a place of quiet and rest. I was blessed to be able to rock D. as he slept during the service. I could hear the talk from the infant room, the sermon muted through the wall, and the 2/3’s playing music but it was all set apart from me. A world beyond my own. My world was quiet, peaceful, and restful.

It seems lately I have needed some rest, and while I see some coming in my schedule, and I try to make room daily for it, I don’t think I’m getting enough. Please don’t misunderstand. I am not talking about sleep, though a good nap is welcome at any time. I am talking about rest. I have kept my mind so preoccupied, busy, and focused on nothing and everything that I feel as if I am missing something important. Something big. Something God wants me to see.

Today while I rocked I talked with God. I spent some time in prayer, some solo worship and praise (D was asleep by then), and it was nice to not have to do anything. It didn’t take anything off my list. It didn’t get any of those items accomplished. But it did help me to settle a little more. It did help me to reassess, and maybe even prioritize a little.

This season I am coming into seems busy. All of a sudden I feel alone in the middle of it as well. But I know one thing, and that is God is not leaving me, and He is in control of it all. I can trust that He will work it out, and I just have to do my part. People will come and go. Others will leave, as I have and will. But God wont, and that is why I rely on Him.

I lift my eyes to the mountains. Where does my help come from? It comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
Psalm 121:1-2